If Tomorrow Never Comes
The day in question was September 11, 2018.
I remember going through events of the day in my head and apart from my body that felt tired and weak, everything else was normal.
For some reason that day, I seemed to be getting weaker and could not place what could be causing it.
I’ve been experiencing this tiredness and wobbly legs for quite a while and all attempts to get answers to what was happening to my body by reporting to the hospital have proved futile.
I have been to the hospital twice in a row that week, the last attendance just a day ago, with the same symptoms but after a series of tests and examinations, nothing concrete was identified to be the cause of the general feeling of weakness in my body. It was as if some very vital battery in my body was either not working well or had died completely.
My blood pressure was normal for my age, my sugar level normal, and urine tests and organ tests all came out good.
So, as I sat before the bespectacled doctor who also seemed to be at a loss with what was going on in my body, I told him about something my optician said at my last visit just to see if it was connected to what I was feeling. My regular visit to my optician two weeks ago had given me a little scared when he told me my tear bank seemed to have dried up or something.
It was the worry on his face when he made that pronouncements that made me scared so I asked him if that was something I should worry about.
He might have sensed the worry in my voice because he smiled and told me it was nothing and recommended I drink more water than usual.
The confused bespectacled doctor, sitting before me at the moment, looked over the test results for the umpteenth time and concluded that it could be malaria that had not manifested yet so he gave me a familiar anti-malaria drug and a few painkillers should I suffer from headaches or fever.
Then, he had advised that I get enough rest as much as possible and dismissed me from his consulting room with ‘drink more water than usual’ and the truth was I had been doing that ever since the optician first alerted me.
The screen changed and I saw myself and the family sitting around the table for the routine family ‘daily text’ from Examining the Scriptures after the kids had been prepared for school that day.
Looking at them, I knew how blessed I was to have them. I loved them to bits and watching them grow had been one of my highs in life.
The day’s Bible text was taken from Micah 7:7 – ‘I will show a waiting attitude.’
In summary, what the text for the day admonished was for every Christian to cultivate a waiting attitude, especially through hard times or disappointments because God always supported His faithful servants even though He makes them wait for privileges or a favourable change in circumstance.
Those words were very refreshing to me indeed that day.
I have had my fair share of disappointments the whole year and even way back but in all things, I have relied heavily on Jehovah for guidance and comfort.
I have a family that loved me to bits and that was an added source of support and comfort.
My mom, dad, sisters, wife and children were blessings God had bestowed me with and every time I go on my knees in prayer, I give thanks for that privilege.
I then dropped off my kids at school and my wife at her office after breakfast and quickly passed through the bank to withdraw money for the workers on a small housing project I was undertaking for my immediate family.
I felt very tired all of a sudden and very thirsty too on my way home from the bank ATM. I saw myself stop when I chanced on a coconut seller on the way and got some of the refreshing coconut juice. I stood there and drank the juice from about three of them and that quenched the thirst tremendously.
As I drove home, the song “Keep Your Eyes on the Prize” came to mind. I quickly selected from the list of songs on the car tape player and hit the play button.
I’ve found myself singing this very song most times in my mind all week. But today, I sang it out loud in my car as it played and my heart was glad indeed.
I felt a wave of inner peace, some joy I could not put a finger on. I felt so happy.